Im scared. I hate to admit it but i am scared.
"Of what?" People would ask that if i tell them my feeling
"i dont know.." , and they would look at me as if im crazy , or i am just craving for attention.
I dont know why or what i am scared of. But this feeling i am holding inside, it is exactly the feeling i experienced when i was scared of something.
I hate it!!! I hate this feeling!!!
It made me feel like i am so weak, vulnerable, and dependent.
Would someone, without asking any words, hold me tight and whisper to me " everything gonna be alright, i will be there no matter what happens." ?
Would someone, without judging me, be there for me?
Someone might , but will i accept him?
Will i be able to break my wall and come to him with all my heart? Despite the fact that im scared to death that my heart will be broken again?
And that im not perfect? nor rich? nor smart?
Im just pretending to be strong. So hard to keep that image...
I need help :(
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